@marcos.diaz

[heliophilous]

with everything that's gone on lately, i had a question.

if given the choice, how many people would stay here and how many people would leave? i get that it's a pretty personal question and don't feel like you've gotta answer. i'm just curious considering the way the place has changed lately and the people that have been lost.

could you live your life here? or would you leave and take your chances?

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[heliophilous]

you don't have to do it, you know.

nothing wrong with attachments.

[ says the man that tried his damndest not to get attached for awhile. ]

[motivation]

you sound like johnny

[heliophilous]

that a good thing or a bad thing?

[ since he doesn't know who johnny is and all. ]

[motivation]

[ don't put her on the spot like that

there's a pause before she answers ]

good

[heliophilous]

good.

point stands, too. nothing wrong with attachments. sure, they can make some things hard but the lack of them is harder.

[motivation]

you made your point
i'd still go back

[ she's got attachments at home. johnny's back there now. d'avin, too, even if d'avin left because she's too broken, too damaged for fixing.

and she's got a quad to save. ]

i have shit i need to do

[heliophilous]

so do i.

my answer would be the same.

i can just see it being difficult because of those attachments and i tried hard to stay away from them when i got here.

[motivation]

guess you gotta ask yourself if the shit you've got to do is more important than those attachments

[heliophilous]

it is.

i can't stay no matter how much i might want to.

[motivation]

do you want to?

[heliophilous]

does it matter if i do? i can't.

[motivation]

guess not, then

[heliophilous]

guess not.

it's not really worth thinking about, you know. if i can't, why torment myself with the possibility that i can?

[motivation]

if you didn't want to stay, it wouldn't be torture

[heliophilous]

i guess.

but, i'll deal with it. got through one bout of torture, i can get through that if it comes to it.

[motivation]

oh, fun

[ definitely the correct response to learning someone's been tortured, right ]

[heliophilous]

not the word i'd use to describe it but sure.

guess some people might think that.

[motivation]

need a drink?

[heliophilous]

yeah.

might be nice.

[motivation]

you know where my bar is

[ "hers" like she isn't still a bouncer and nothing more ]

[heliophilous]

i do.

that an invitation?

[motivation]

why don't you come find out

[heliophilous]

well, with encouragement like that, how can i resist?

i'll be there when in a little while.

[motivation]

see you

idk if you wanna go to action so if you don't, just ignore meeee

[heliophilous]

[ eventually, he shows up. he knows she's not waiting with bated breath for his presence and there are things he has to take care of before he's free for the night to have a drink or two or four.

but, he gets there eventually and takes a seat at the bar, elbows braced against the grainy wood. it's not that crowded tonight but he's far from the only person around.

when she makes her way over to him, he half smiles, nods. ] Good to finally meet you. Whatever you've got that's strong is what I want.