@yalena.yardeen

[motivation]

what the hells?

[ that's it. guess who definitely wasn't expecting to be on a train to new tokyo? yeah. ]

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[reneger]

sounds messy
you doing okay?

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[shorelined]

I am fine.

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[reneger]

sure you're not just putting on a tough face for the crowd?

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[shorelined]

I will not say that it has not affected me at all, but it is nothing I have not handled before.

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[reneger]

comes with the job title, doesn't it?
dealing with a shitton of fucked up crap because it's your job, your responsibility, and your burden
it's stupid

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[shorelined]

In the early years of the Team, we spoke to Black Canary often.

[ he misses it. it had often helped. ]

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[reneger]

guess it's time to find yourself a new therapist

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[shorelined]

I do not think I will find one here I can be equally open with.

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[reneger]

you've got dick

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[shorelined]

Your brother?

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[reneger]

sure

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[shorelined]

No, I do not think so.

[ he hardly imagines dick will want to listen to him unburdening himself ]

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[reneger]

he makes a great sounding board

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[shorelined]

I do not doubt it.

[ but even with dick reaching out now, he still doubts dick would appreciate it. he doesn't blame him, for all that he wishes things were different. ]

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[reneger]

or you can talk to me

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[shorelined]

I do not wish to burden you.

[ especially if it is a one-sided thing. easier to just carry it all himself. ]

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[reneger]

would it make you feel better if i shared my dark, tragic past too?

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[shorelined]

If it would help you as well, yes.

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[reneger]

k
find me

( as he sits in a car lounging in one of the seats with his feet up on the one in front of him like a total ass. )

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[shorelined]

[ it takes a while, but eventually, kaldur does. ]

Is this seat taken?

[ utterly polite, except for how one of his eyebrows rises ]

[reneger]

Definitely. All full up, you'll have to find someplace else. ( but jason does lower his legs, makes room for kaldur to slide in even if he does still take up as much room as possible. )

How's your train adventure going?

[shorelined]

[ jason lowers his legs despite the words, and despite the words, kaldur settles into the seat. he's not a small man and jason does not make as much room as possible. he wonders if it was deliberate on jason's part to force some physical contact between them this way. wonders, too, if it is for his comfort or jason's.

(maybe it's just jason being contrary. kaldur still finds comfort in the contact.) ]

I was expecting to be on this train, so it is not as confusing for me as I assume it is for others.

[reneger]

( that's just it, isn't it? jason is always a contradiction. he's loud, purposefully irritating, spreads himself out like he fucking owns this whole goddamn train when he wishes he was anywhere but here. pushes into kaldur's space when he's still having trouble occupying his own. smirks when what he really wants to do is grind his teeth together because fuck this. )

Offered to join the relief efforts? That's cute, and nice.

[shorelined]

It was a way to help.

[ he thinks on that a moment, then amends: ] It is.

[reneger]

Huh. ( with a low, contemplative hum before jason slouches even further into his seat, turns eyes to focus them on kaldur. )

So, talk.