@daisy.johnson

[evite]

[ 31 july. 23:00. ]

i need someone to reinvent aol instant messenger so i can put angsty song lyrics as my away message.

[ were you expecting something serious? ]

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[forcevisions]

Did something happen that you need to forget for a while?

/ private

[evite]

apparently there was more than just soot in the burning building
whatever i breathed in made me go full dr hyde on my roommate

[ """roommate""" ]

before you ask, dr hyde is a reference to an old book nobody really reads anymore
it's about a doctor named jekyll who does something to himself and it turns him into a raging madman he calls hyde that he can't control

[ cliffnotes? ]

/ private

[forcevisions]

I went all Dr Hyde on someone too.

[ she picks it up fluidly, like someone who's used to juggling multiple languages with all their colloquialisms. ]

It wasn't your fault.

∞ private.

[evite]

it's not the first time i've done it to him, apparently
at least not in his timeline
i haven't exactly lived that part yet myself

[ what the fuck does that even mean ]

[forcevisions]

I heard about that.

Someone is here from my universe who doesn't remember things that I remember.

He can't blame you for what you haven't done. That's not fair.

[evite]

he doesn't blame me. that's the worst part.

he wants to act like none of this is happening
like if we pretend it didn't happen, it just makes it okay

[forcevisions]

What's wrong with that?

[ says rey, repression expert. ]

[evite]

[ the answer takes more honesty than she's really prepared for. it takes a hot minute for her to reply. ]

because i'm not okay with it, and i can't just pretend like i am because it makes him feel better
i want to be a better person than that
he deserves a better friend

he was the only person who stood up for me when i got my powers back home
he didn't deserve what i did to him, and i don't want to pretend like it didn't happen

[forcevisions]

[ wow there's a lot to unpack there. it hits in all the places it hurts, since rey is presently trying to repress and avoid apologizing to kylo for exactly the same thing. is kylo a good person? not presently. actively choosing not to be, in fact. but he's also the only person who'd supported her when she was so afraid of her own abilities, who'd helped her come to accept her responsibility.

daisy's words echo a little too well, and it makes her feel sick and shitty. so she does what she does best: avoids it and focuses on daisy instead. ]

Then maybe you should let him decide what he wants and stop trying to decide for him.

[evite]

maybe

[ if it was someone else, she might not have replied. left them on read, so to speak, but never getting around to typing out a reply. but it's rey, and daisy likes rey. respects her, even. she doesn't really want to just blow her off. ]

might just be easier to keep mooching off open house buffets and pitching tents in skyparks, though

[ that's not the point, daisy. ]

[forcevisions]

I could use a roommate.

[evite]

if it comes to that, i'll let you know

[ but fitz is needy, and keeps blowing up her phone. eventually, she'll have to face the music. ]

[forcevisions]

If you say so.