@marcos.diaz

[heliophilous]

[ marcos hadn't really expected to be back on this network so soon but he'd said he'd do something and while it was a little later than expected, he was going to follow through with that. ]

Not too long ago, I was here with questions about a different version of me being here before. Seems like there's a few people that's happened to now so our club's growing. I'm not here for that today.

During that conversation, I told someone that I'd ask a question to all the Displaced because she was curious and honestly, I am too.

Question is why do you stick around? Why haven't more of you 'fucked off into oblivion' to quote the last conversation I had about this? Is it because there's nowhere else better to go? Or something else?

[ it'd be interesting to see if there was genuine thought in some of the answers, if people didn't know there was anywhere else to go, or just didn't want to make the effort. ]

To be clear, I'm not advocating one way or another. Just posing the question.

[ OOC: this isn't an official mod requested communication and isn't part of some bigger plot. it's just curiosity born of a conversation marcos had with gaby here that he said he'd ask about so he's asking. feel free to talk to each other, of course, and i'll answer as i can. ]

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[heliophilous]

And I assume that reason is a person.
They feel the same?

[evite]

if he doesn't, it's news to me.

[ he told her as much, anyway. ]

[heliophilous]

You've already talked about it?
Guess it's good to be on the same page.

[evite]

yeah. we've talked about it a couple times, actually.

[ she keeps rereading this post and wanting to scream. ]

telling people they're selfish for trying to make a life here isn't going to help anyone.
we may not have a choice about being here, but we can choose what to do now that we're here. if someone wants to focus on living instead of going back, that's up to them.

i just want people to know that it's possible. you can find something that gives you a reason to survive here that isn't just going back to wherever you came from, you know?

[heliophilous]

I believe you.
I'd be shocked if something like that hadn't happened, honestly. When you're in close quarters with people for a long period of times, it happens.

[ it happened to him before, it might happen again. who knows. ]

Survival's the name of the game, isn't it? That's top priority.

[evite]

it's not about survival.
if that's all it was, people would be satisfied to eat crackers and warm themselves by a firepit.

people want to live. i know i do.
at some point, you have to face the reality that going home may not be on the immediate horizon. you have to be able to face the life you've got in the meantime.

[ she doesn't say "i don't know that we'll ever go home" because that's too depressing to think about for people who want to. but daisy's not sure if she believes it's really possible. ]

[heliophilous]

I think you'd be hard pressed to find someone that doesn't want to live.

[ maybe there were a few out there who were just going through the motions but he hopes not. he hopes everyone has at least something. ]

What point do you think people should start to face that? Or is it a personal thing?

[evite]

you might find people who feel guilty for wanting to.

[ she had, at first. ]

there's no one size fits all on this kind of thing. everybody's got their own shit to deal with.

[heliophilous]

Yeah.

[ that...feels very, very familiar. he's pretty sure he might still be in a phase like that. ]

So, what's your hope, then? If you decide to stay here, live your life, where do you find your hope?

[ he's just going to take something from another conversation and bring it here to gauge the different opinion that he expects to get. ]

[evite]

people, i guess.

it sounds tacky to say that i'd stay here for my boyfriend but it's more than just one person. it's people who don't have anywhere to go back to, people who have freedom here that they didn't have before, people who got a second chance at being normal or a first chance at being someone special.
i have a whole team at home that i miss every day, so it's not like i don't have anything to go back to. but the longer i stay here, the more this feels like it could be home too.

[ living two lives is never easy. she'd only been in the framework a few days, and that had taken its toll. she knew from fitz that a lifetime of it could wreck a person's mind if they weren't careful. ]

[heliophilous]

It's not wrong to put your hope in people. I've done it before. And I'll do it again.

[ sometimes people was all you had to keep you going. to make you get up in the morning. to make sure you didn't fall into the darkness forever. to give you a reason to put one foot in front of the other. ]

It's good to have people like that.

[evite]

better in people than in winning the lottery, right?

[ what a bad joke ]

[heliophilous]

I think you'll have more success with people.
Also fewer money hungry long lost relatives coming out of nowhere to try and take your stuff.

[evite]

you make a good point
i guess i'd be more worried about that if i had any relatives who were either alive or knew i existed

[ don't worry, daisy, you'll get a chance to dig up your dead mom in the future ]

[heliophilous]

You and me both.
But, doubt I'll have many opportunities to get rich anyway.
Not exactly playing the lottery.

[evite]

if the lottery exists, maybe we should be playing it
we're already beating the odds all being here.

[ do a lottery pact. ]

[heliophilous]

Not a bad thought.
Guess the first step would be finding out if there's a lottery.
And then going from there.

[ even if there was a lottery, he probably wouldn't play it. his luck was already terrible. there was no need to spread it around. ]