@hafid.alghul

[batricide]

Do you want to make a difference in this world?

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[batricide]

I don't want sycophants and loyalists. I want dissent and discussion because that is what drives improvement and holds people accountable.

If people want to discuss this with me in good faith and not read into motivation that isn't there, I'll hear them out. As I have been here. As I did before.

I have tried, time and time again, to do this, and have apparently failed every time.

[evite]

then maybe it's time you let someone else handle the pr side of things, damian. because this isn't it.

[batricide]

Whatever.
I'm done trying.

[ those feelings he Definitely Doesn't Have are all kinds of hurt. ]

[evite]

that's a great way to show you're open to feedback.

[batricide]

Okay, what the Hell do you want from me Johnson? You just told me to have someone else do it.
I have done my damnedest to take in every piece of feedback from every catastrophic discussion.
I have tried to ask people for context and to elaborate on how they feel, and to ask questions to be certain I understand, and this is what happens.
I cannot win. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Are you happy? I don't get what I'm doing that other people aren't.

[evite]

for one, i'd like to be spoken to like we're friends, not like i'm your misbehaving employee. i've told you that.

second, if you want to have a discussion, actually open up the table for it. it's not that difficult to start a conversation with something beyond a vague generality. "i'm interested in forming some kind of vigilante squad to deal with the problems that the uapd/una aren't addressing. what do other people think?" is not a difficult pair of sentences to write.

when people ask you for clarification, don't blow them off. "it's obvious." no, it fucking isn't. if it was obvious, i wouldn't have asked you a question.

this might be the most important point: don't take it so goddamn personally when people disagree with you. "i'm glad to know what you really think of me" as if anyone here is insulting you personally. if i really didn't give a shit about you, damian, i would have opened this post, closed it, and gone on with my day. i would never have bothered to even have this conversation.

i do care. about you, about this goddamn city, about the displaced. i care a lot, because i'm not leaving. but i don't think forming the revengers hit squad is the way to do it.

[batricide]

You insulted me personally. Your digs were personal. You want to be pissed about how I talk to you, how about you take a look at how you were talking to me? Disagreeing wasn't the problem. What you said was. I am CONSTANTLY being shit on for how I speak, and believe it or not I am doing my best here. Shocking, I know, admitting that it falls short of whatever expectations are held for me.

Impersonal and formal gets called defensive, normal gets called aggressive, I can't WIN.

And where did I say it was going to be a hit squad?

[evite]

you can't win, no. you're not winning. you are the equivalent of the kid throwing a temper tantrum on the football field because your team lost the big game right now.

take a futuristic xanax, take a breath, and try a different approach next time.

that's it.

[batricide]

Someone else will handle it.

[ he's throwing in the towel. he's pretty done. nothing else to do but go vent his frustrations in his favorite abandoned warehouse. ]