I understand. [Whereas Kovacs can be caustic and distant, Clarke knows that she doesn't strike anyone as the type to truly understand. But she's also the type to explain. To tell the truth about her perspective.]

I once left my people behind. It was after I earned that title I told you about—as the Commander of Death. Carrying it was too much, and I believed ... somewhat foolishly ... that if I left them behind, I could take everything with me. Protect them from me. Protect myself from losing more. [Clarke shakes her head.]

But it doesn't work that way. And I couldn't exactly shield my heart from caring about people. Though I think you get that. Know that.