(on any other day, his guilt would be assuaged by markus' words or at least put on hold until he got somewhere private where he could lament over his choices alone — there's too much of it now, he can't shake the fact that he brought so much pain and suffering down on the heads of he innocent. it was a grave mistake and one he shouldn't have been forced to make.
but that's what bothers him the most. kamski confirmed his deviancy and his own software instabilities should've been enough pressure, he should've been able to break free of it on his own without markus' help, having known all along that's the direction he was heading in. it was an inevitability and he still turned his back on the wide open door he was walking towards. amanda in his ear offering icy encouragement that frightened him into doing what he was told to do, her grip on the back of his neck tight. well after he still bent a knee to her, the plan all along. would he now, if she were here?
is she, in a way? programmed into him? was the emergency exit even viable, or did it just force her into dormancy?)
I understand, Markus, but I... didn't want this to be about me. (his voice is thick with emotion he can't swallow, taking a step back until he feels his heel bump the couch.) It isn't. I may have made a choice to change, but I was never in control of myself. This is about our people.
(you're one of those people, his mind supplies, but connor's loose fists cinch tighter.
the amount of information markus has received is surely weighing on him. he can tell he's tired of the combat, sick with remorse at the lives they've lost getting to the end of their battle, worried about the war ahead. they still have so much to do with so little time to do it in, this being just the beginning of a much larger campaign that'll span the entire north american continent and, eventually, the world. installing android leaders beside humans, facing the hate they're certain to garner, in the grand scheme of things this may have seemed like a grand leap forward but in actuality was a small step in the right direction.
many more will die, many more will be subject to the same abuses they were, many more will be used against them the way he was used against markus.)
You know what to do moving forward now, you have information that can save the people of Jericho and win the hearts of the humans in your timeline. I thought the butterfly effect from something like this would affect our world negatively, which is another reason why I was so hesitant to tell you — but now I realize this could be a massive gain.
... No one has to die. That's the bottom line. If you return to 2038 and retain your memories, get rid of me before I find Jericho or move everyone before it's too late.
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but that's what bothers him the most. kamski confirmed his deviancy and his own software instabilities should've been enough pressure, he should've been able to break free of it on his own without markus' help, having known all along that's the direction he was heading in. it was an inevitability and he still turned his back on the wide open door he was walking towards. amanda in his ear offering icy encouragement that frightened him into doing what he was told to do, her grip on the back of his neck tight. well after he still bent a knee to her, the plan all along. would he now, if she were here?
is she, in a way? programmed into him? was the emergency exit even viable, or did it just force her into dormancy?)
I understand, Markus, but I... didn't want this to be about me. (his voice is thick with emotion he can't swallow, taking a step back until he feels his heel bump the couch.) It isn't. I may have made a choice to change, but I was never in control of myself. This is about our people.
(you're one of those people, his mind supplies, but connor's loose fists cinch tighter.
the amount of information markus has received is surely weighing on him. he can tell he's tired of the combat, sick with remorse at the lives they've lost getting to the end of their battle, worried about the war ahead. they still have so much to do with so little time to do it in, this being just the beginning of a much larger campaign that'll span the entire north american continent and, eventually, the world. installing android leaders beside humans, facing the hate they're certain to garner, in the grand scheme of things this may have seemed like a grand leap forward but in actuality was a small step in the right direction.
many more will die, many more will be subject to the same abuses they were, many more will be used against them the way he was used against markus.)
You know what to do moving forward now, you have information that can save the people of Jericho and win the hearts of the humans in your timeline. I thought the butterfly effect from something like this would affect our world negatively, which is another reason why I was so hesitant to tell you — but now I realize this could be a massive gain.
... No one has to die. That's the bottom line. If you return to 2038 and retain your memories, get rid of me before I find Jericho or move everyone before it's too late.